Saw something which I promised myself I wouldn't 'cos it would just end up cracking me all over and it did, but not for long.
Fcuk my fingers, to hell with my head with those ideas to click. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR :O
Day was spent with Joanne, Baby and Makus at town. Did some fruitless shopping and headed down to Ice to sing and Chivas-d, shy bodoh! :P
Chatted a little with C on MSN and he said something I don't know whether to believe or not. I chose NOT for now :P
Anyway, C said I changed into someone he never knew and wanted to "talk things out" with me some time this week. LOL to the max yo! Haa!
Perhaps I really changed into someone I didn't know, perhaps.
All I know is, I had enough of boys or pre-man males who would most likely end up playing mind games and end things when trial period is due - so sick of those.
Boys who would play cool even though they were the bastards who screwed things and define things in ways you can never imagine.
Who hurt who, Who bastard who, does it really matter that much?
Not when they are just fibs or gossip topic during happy hours. Worse, hit-chicks conversations. Childish, very very childsh. LOL!
Oh, the play cool thingy was said by a new door host, Camy, at VillaBali:) Aiya, let's turn les laaaaaah, wth.
It's 13 more days till legal, not really looking-forward actually :/ Double O Double O Double O, hmm?
Dear Lord, I know I haven been good this past months and I clearly know the reasons and made my choice. I seek your forgiveness and ask that you would remove the hurt I have deep down that no one sees. Lord, heal my heart. Thank you for great friends who stood by. I chose to learn the hard way ;my choice, my consequences. Help me to forget the necessary ;places, events, people especially, for there is no point holding on to a stalk of thorned rose that just wouldn't bloom no matter the time.
To hell with pretentious smiles and surface care and concerns. Moving on the G.Y style XD Goodnight all, ciaos! |